1. Most nights I lay awake worrying that I may lose my mind or die of a broken heart long before all the partying I’ve done catches up with me. I don’t want to live in fear anymore.

     


  2. Trying to keep track of my own mind seems more impossible everyday. I feel like I’m in a losing battle with my own loneliness and mental health and I have to constantly remind myself that the life ahead of me is better than the one I’m leaving behind. I fight myself everyday to make changes in my life but I can never find the strength in myself that I need. My fear of the world and fear of myself is keeping me from the life I’ve always wanted. I don’t think I’ve ever cared so much about my life or my future and I feel like its slipping away from me the moment it all seems real. Everyone tells me I’m doing so much better than I have before but I never feel it, I feel like I’m a passenger in my own life and its going nowhere. I only feel strong when I’m hopeless but as soon as I believe in myself I get carried away in my own head and spiral out of control. I’m seeing a new psychiatrist in a few weeks, hopefully I can trust them and make the changes in my life I’ve been trying to make for years, all I can do for now is hope. I can’t always tell if I’m making the right choices in life but I can’t just hide and let the world pass me by like I have been. I need to love myself and holding on to all the times I haven’t is holding me back.

     


  3. Just over 4 months without drinking and 3 days without smoking pot and all I dreamt about last night was getting fucked up. Wtf.

     


  4. spent the day perseverating about how i can never get anything done, just looked at the clock and its only noon.

     

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  6. I am, at least, master of my own downfall.
     

  7. (via bonging)

     

  8. psychotic-art:

    Adam Lupton

     

  9. tamburina:

    Malcolm T. Liepke

    (via midnightmushrumps)

     

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  11. wandrlust:

    5021 Felton Avenue | Hawthorne, August 17, 1991 — John Humble

     

  12. gacougnol:

    Hannes Kilian
    Cat Nero in the Snow
    1953

    (via workman)

     

  13. (Source: dezyderata, via ifffy)

     

  14. workman:

    cinoh:

    Hollis Brown Thornton - TV Room (May Day) (2011)

    (Source: likeafieldmouse)

     

  15. (Source: veraintheden, via 35frames)